clarity

My previous posts up to this point have been somewhat serious. Well, not just somewhat- very serious deep things that I have come across recently in my journey. But that in no way means that I have been in a serious mood for the last couple of weeks.

Actually quite the opposite, I have been in a better mood and have been taking pleasure out of life more than I have for a long time. Being on house arrest and really not having a choice in what i do has allowed to me to search for the smallest things to enjoy. And that is all I have.

It is certainly good practice for any future situation which I need to make the best of. I am getting good at it. And I am looking forward to using it, because surely the most awful situations can be hiding the most amazingly beautiful lessons and truths. It will only take the right set of eyes.

It is something special when you can find a person with the same eyes as yours. It doesn't not take any special explanation or discussion of motives and reasoning, for you both to see what anything really is at its most basic level. I guess this is what people call their soul mate. And it is really independent of path of travel, as long as you can come to a common place and understanding.

I have found that my family has very similar eyes, especially my brother and I. But we have also experienced such different things, and have been traveling on such different paths, that how we come to the same place is nothing short of miraculous. And better yet it provides some of the most awe inspiring lessons that I have had in my life, that even though a person can have no idea what you have been through, they can still see things in your eyes. And by studying how they came to see through your eyes, without the experiences that you have had, can provide some of the mentioned incredible lessons. And by taking a step back and seeing through their eyes for a second you can again find some of the beauty of your "mudane" life that you have been skimming over with little second thought.

So seeing things in the same eyes does not mean that there is only one view of each thing or situation, and that two people happen to share this image. Many people agree on a matter, but will never understand how the other came to see it in that manner. And although they see things in the same way they are not seeing the same things, and cannot allow themselves to see through the others eyes.

Seeing something with the same eyes does not mean that you come to the same conclusion, but that you both see the same details and have similar filters of what is relevant. Each individual can take the details and write a different story, but they can appreciate the others story and even more than that- they can start to understand a person better by the way that the two stories differ even when they are written with the same details.

So seeing with the same eyes doesn't mean that you always agree, and doesn't mean that there are not confrontations and arguments. I adamantly believe that any two people together for long enough time will get in argument, if not, one of the two is not being true to themselves and is too quick to please. It actually makes me very uncomfortable if I cannot find someway in that I differ from someone and thus have arguments with. I have arguments with myself all the time, and I am only one person and am not any different. And I don't think that I am schizophrenic.

At least for me, I like to have some trials and troubles because it makes you feel alive and also gives you a chance to reassure that you actually care. If there are no problems, you must not be caring much for what is happening, and ignoring any problems that might be.

Ok, so this is my second post of the day so I better cut it off here.

Why I never started a blog before is now easy to see, because then I wouldn't have been starting my first one now.

"I got a peaceful easy feeling."